#g rambles #im so fuckin like ahhhhh #fuck my ex hes an asshole #but our year anniverary is coming up and im going to fucking scream #i want to fucking die but like not really lmao #i am no where near being like completely over it #but like idk i feel solid in this moment that i know ive moved on but like fuck shit still hurts #especially what he said hahaha #but still lmao idk im just hurting #i hate being so stressed like in so many different ways that i cant even like handle??? #like i have so much to do academically and like i also need to fuckin move through these feels on top of it #its just hard #ive been sitting outside chain smoking for like an hour now lmao #idk i have good people around me tho so i know ill be supported through this time #but fuck dude #fuck all that fuckin bullshit #im so much of a different person than i was a year agi #ago fuck #anyway ahhh #a year ago i thought i was like actually happy? but boy was i wrong lmao #i almost said that im happier now but im not lmao #i thought i had a whole future with someone that i gave my entire heart and everything to #but wow im so glad thats not what im doing with life fuck #fuck that #now im my own love of my life tho #and whatever gappens im gonna end up with me so i gotta love me a lil bit yknow #happens #i hate that mobile tags dont have autocorrect #anyway whatever ill stop rambling now #i just want my shit back